You know I don’t have the best history when it comes to dating. I told you all about it in about our sixth date, and I will forever remember your reaction. You were so understanding, telling me that you’ll never do these things to me. Even opening up to you about that was hard for me to do, but I did it; Because from the start, I felt you were different. After everything that I’ve been through – the cheating and mistreatment – it’s been hard for me to trust others. But then, you came along and changed everything.

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Even though you proved yourself to me time and time again, it wasn’t an easy road. You made it so easy to trust you, and yet, along the way, I lost some of my faith in you. See, you are just so perfect. You’re funny, respectful, successful, loyal, lovable, loving, and so much more. You are everything I ever wanted in a man. So, sometimes, I feel like I need to pinch myself to make sure all of this is real. Immediately, I go back to all the pain I felt, to every guy that wronged me. I project everything they had done to me on to you. I know it’s not fair, but I can’t seem to block it.

So, I ask you to be patient with me. You make me want to be better, to improve, and that is what I am working on every day since I’ve met you. For my New Year’s resolution, I wished to work on my trust issues. I know I suspected you in the past, and I apologize for that. Please, be patient as I work on establishing my trust again. You make me feel loved, deserved, and worth every day, and I want to do the same for you. And I know I’m not making it easy on you, but I want you to know that your patience isn’t taken for granted. I appreciate everything that you are to me and your patience. I promise it’ll be worth your while.