This year, my little daughter had her first day of school. We were both very excited about the big day for weeks on end. Being the youngest, my daughter couldn’t wait to be more like her big sister and go to school. Having been through this before, I expected myself to be able to keep it together. Boy, was I wrong. The day before I started crying, immediately after I dropped her off at kindergarten, I started balling.
To get some of my emotions off my chest, I wrote my daughter a letter. Here it is before you.
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My dearest daughter,
Today was the last night I tucked you in as a pre-schooler. Tomorrow, you will have your first day of kindergarten. I can’t believe how much you’ve grown. In the snap of the finger, you went from a tiny baby I held in my arms to a beautiful little girl that can wrap her hands around me.
It’s amazing how much light you brought into my life. Before we decided to have you, I wasn’t sure I wanted another kid. Thankfully, you came along, and my life took a major turn for the better.
I hope you won’t grow out of who you are. You’re a giver and such a big light. I hope you will never stop shining and spread your light in the world. Just stay who you are, because you are beautiful.
In just a few hours, I will hold your hand and escort you to the entrance of your kindergarten. I will cry like a baby as you walk through those school doors. However, you must know those aren’t tears of sadness. I’m crying because I am proud of you. Of the little lady that you grew up to be. Excited about the journey you are starting.
I used to carry you in my arms, protect you from the world outside. Now, you are stepping into a public institution, into the world. I hope that it won’t change you, that you won’t outgrow all of your amazing habits. The way you kiss and hug your sister every morning, the way you look up to her, the way you care about others, your innocence.
It’s hard to do, but I am letting you go, letting you fly. I am sad that you won’t be around as much but excited about everything that you are about to learn.
I love you and can’t wait to hear all about your first day,
Your proud Mommy.