When I started in my current work, I had a rough time fitting in. New beginnings are usually tough for everyone, but this one was much harder. It was a whole new field for me and it was very hard since I loved my old job. What made it even harder for me was one of my co-workers.
Starting, I was very insecure. I was learning on the go, trying to get into the paste of things. One of the people who helped me with my training was someone who works at the company for about two years now in a similar position to mine. Whenever I needed help, he was the one to turn to.
He was very nice and supportive, but I still received a condescending tone from him underneath the surface. I found that whenever I was around him, I was extremely nervous and functioned horribly. As a result, I ended up asking for his help on many occasions, causing me to feel embarrassed and ashamed.
I remember this one-week during my second month there. He was absent on sick leave. What I remember about this week was that I functioned beautifully. Suddenly, things worked for me and fell into place. With him gone, I flourished.
What I am trying to say is that we need to focus on ourselves. We need to believe in our abilities and not let others distract us. At the same time, we need to accept that asking for help is not a sign of weakness, but strength. We learn from it, grow, gain confidence.
So, believe in yourself and know what you are capable of. Once you know just how much you are worth, nothing could hold you back.