From A Girl About To Die
June 26, 2018
Rebecca Rodriguez

I’m only in my twenties, and I’ve got terminal cancer. I’m going to die very soon. I’m sorry if I’m scaring you to hear this, but that’s the harsh truth. You don’t have to keep reading if it’s not for you. But to be honest, it’s so crazy that we can’t even talk about death. It’s become such a taboo topic, I supposed because ignore is bliss. Although we all know it’s inevitable, we would rather not think about it.

 

I’ve have a lot of time to reflect in the past few months as I wait for my passing, and there some life lessons I want to share with you.

 

Health was a major part of my life. I ate healthy and was very active. I loved sports, and could play them all day. But sometimes, things are not within our control. I am slowly watching my body break down and fade away. There is nothing I can do. Nothing.

 

Be grateful for everyday you have. Don’t take it for granted. Every day is an amazing gift. Always tell your friends and family how much you loved them.  Our society is constantly complaining about how stressful life is, how hard it is get up and go to work and to work out.

 

Be grateful that you can do all those things, because one day you might lose everything. Live every moment to the fullest. Every day that your body works as it should is a blessing.

 

Stop living your life through an Instagram filter. That’s not what it’s about it. That’s not what will bring you true happiness. Truly connect with those around you and live in the moment. Appreciate all of the beauty around you, for you, not to share with everyone else.

 

I’ve never understood girls who spend hours upon hours getting ready for an event. No one really cares that you wore the same thing twice or how your hair looks. Time is so precious. Stop worrying about the small things. Sure, getting caught in a traffic jam is annoying, and we’re allowed to complain. But please, just please, put things in perspective, because there are people out there who have it so much worse than you.

 

Money is a weird thing when you’re passing. It’s not the time when you go out and buy yourself a new designer dress. All I want is to buy presents for those I love, not material things. I want to give them experiences. I want to contribute to them enjoying life as much as possible.

 

All I want is just one more, just one more, birthday and thanksgiving with my family, my boyfriend and my dog. I want more than anything to grow old and build a family with my partner, but I know that won’t happen.

 

I was given an extra year to live from generous blood donations, and this year meant everything to me. It was terrifying, but it was also one of the greatest years. I had so many special experiences and am so thankful for all of it.

 

 

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