In my everyday life, I work so hard. Too hard. It has its benefits, of course. I make good money, I have something to keep me busy, and interested during the day – I get to do what I love. However, there are prominent disadvantages. Being that I am at a high position, I work long-hour days, which means that I don’t get to spend much time at home, and therefore, with my daughters. Unfourtenetly, my work kept me away from home and made me miss several key moments in my children’s upbringing. But then, everything changed.
A few months ago, the whole world stopped. With the spread of the coronavirus, everything reached a halt. Accept for essential workers, a lot of people found themselves working from home. So, from spending almost exclusively evenings at home, I found myself at home all day, every day. While I still had work to do, I found that in my office, a prominent portion of my time is wasted on nothing due to different distractions. At home, however, I would finish my job earlier than usual and use it to be with my daughters, bond with them.
This time, which was very stressful, difficult, and scary, also brought with it very few silver linings. Getting to spend more time with my kids was one of them. I got to witness them throughout the day, be there to see my youngest daughter growing up, which didn’t happen a lot with my oldest, unfortunately. Now that I got the taste of it, I am afraid that I won’t be able to go back to my work like before. Don’t get me wrong – I love my job and miss being with my co-workers, but this showed me what I was missing all these years, and it’s a lot. I will have to find a healthier, better combination of my work and home life, and hopefully, I’ll find it soon.