Not too long ago, I returned to the dating scene after taking a break from it for a few months. As a result, I’ve been single for about a little over a year. Stepping back into the dating scene, I’m exploring all of the options that are available for me. I’ve tried online dating and met some very nice guys, but I feel nothing, empty. Is it possible that I forgot what it’s like to be in love?
On these dates, I haven’t felt even a twinge of romance – nothing. Even with a very sweet and might I say seemingly perfect, nothing happened, no matter how much I’ve tried. I fear that my heart is has turned black and icy. I fear that I won’t be able to love again, that I forgot the feeling.
I know that it doesn’t make sense, but I fear that due to the long period of time that has passed, my body forgot what it’s supposed to feel. Or rather, that after all the pain I endured from past heartbreaks, my body is trying to protect me by repressing the emotions.
With that being said, I do miss the thrill. I miss the excitement. I miss that feeling of falling in love. I want to feel this way again, regardless of what might happen. Here is to hoping I will.