He Doesn’t Understand My Insecurity
June 24, 2018
Jade Kerr

I’m insecure. I think that people are just trying to be nice when they compliment me. I go to the beauty salon and come home crying. I delete pretty much every picture of myself because I always manage to find something wrong about it.

I do not see myself as attractive, and I know that’s not your fault. I really don’t understand why you take it so personally when I don’t accept your compliments. It has nothing to do with you, and everything to do with me. I’m not being rude by not taking your opinion and sticking to mine, so please stop thinking that.

When seeing other pretty girls around me upsets me, it doesn’t mean I think you’re cheating. When I complain about how terrible my skin is, I’m not implying that you aren’t doing your very best to make me feel beautiful. It has nothing to do with you.

It’s up to me to make me love myself, it’s not your job. It’s so frustrating for me when you get annoyed at me for this. I don’t this when I’m already having such a difficult time with myself.  I am not fishing for compliments, so please don’t make me feel worse about myself, as though there’s something wrong with me. Don’t add to the stress and misery that I’m already feeling.

I know that it’s annoying for you how self-conscious I am and that you wish I believed I was pretty. You don’t think I wished that too? But that’s not my reality. I will always struggle to accept the way I look.  

When I express my insecurities, I need you to be there for me, don’t make me feel like a bother. I need you to listen to me and make me feel like it’s alright to rant on and on. If if you don’t understand what I’m talking about, just listen to me. Be there for me.

I want to feel comfortable coming to you about my insecurities, and not as though I can’t come to you because it will result in a fight between us. I want to share my emotions with you, without being scared that I will be judged by you.

I put on an act around most people, and pretend to like myself. I made jokes about how good looking I am and how I could get any guy I ever wanted, convincing everyone that I’m totally put together.

You are the only person I have truly opened up to and who knows how insecure I really am. It took a lot of courage for me to do that, so please, just respect that.

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