I wish I could forgive you for your actions. I wish I could just forget it and move on; with you. Instead, I’m full of resentment towards you. I am angry and upset, and can’t seem to move past it. Why is it that I can’t make up my mind? How is it that despite my anger and hatred towards you, I still want to make up with you?

I wish I could forgive you because I miss you so much. I think I miss you more than I loved you. I miss you when I hear your favorite song on the radio or as I walk by your favorite restaurant. Even though I desperately want to, I can’t seem to move on from what you did.

I wish I could forgive you, but what you did is unforgivable. You cheated on me, even though you know of my painful history. You know I was cheated on in the past; you know how hard it is for me to trust someone. I let you in, I let my guards down for you, and all you did was betray me. What I might hate even more than what you did to me is that I still miss you. I hate how damaged I am that I am used to this.

I wish I could forgive you but I can’t just ignore it. Even if I do decide to give us another chance, what will probably never happen, I won’t be able to let go of what you did. So, even if I’ll be with you physically, it will never be the same between us emotionally. I will never love you in the way I did before.

I wish I could forgive, but on second thought, I don’t want to.