I’m Done Proving Myself To You
August 8, 2020
Jade Kerr

From the first moment I met you, I thought you were too good for me. You were simply perfect – handsome, charming, funny, kind, the whole package. It took a lot out of me to approach you, and I was certain that your rejection was just a matter of time. However, your reaction was the complete opposite. You wanted to get to know me, and within a few days of talking, we met in person for the first time. A few weeks later and we were already in a relationship. It was a dream come true for me, finally, someone who I can see myself with forever, who likes me back. It was very out of the ordinary for me, considering my tangles history, and I was overwhelmed by it. I didn’t know how to act and behave around you for an amount of time, as I was scared of ruining it. You were you, and I was, well, me.

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For a while, I put on a front. I wasn’t acting like myself around you, because I wanted to prove myself to you. I wanted to prove that I was worthy and deserving of your love. I wished to prove that, you too, would see me a partner for life. It completely took over me. The need to show you, to demonstrate to you that I was good enough, took a toll on me. I couldn’t keep on this facade – I couldn’t be fake around you anymore. At the end of the day, I loved you, and you shouldn’t be fake around the people that you love. So, as days went by, I collected more and more courage to let my guards and acts down. It was time for me to be my true self and show it to you. It was a hard process, but I knew it was necessary for our relationship to last, be successful and healthy. Thankfully, you liked what you saw, and I am so grateful for you and for the light you brought to my life.

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