Losing Myself
December 15, 2019
Alexandra Wade

When I was 15, my family and I moved into a new city. The move required me to adjust myself to new circumstances. A new apartment, new school, new people, almost new everything. Unfourenetly, along the way and as I tried to fit in and adjust fully, I found that a new me has also arisen.

The crowd that surrounded me was much different following our move. As a result, I found myself struggling and fighting to fit in. I wanted to make friends and make this place a real home. Without paying attention to it, I changed. I started acting differently, dressing differently, and speaking differently – all to satisfy and match the people at my new school.

I remember this one day in which I looked at myself in the mirror. I couldn’t recognize myself, the person I had become. I used to be a chill person. I didn’t care a lot about what I was wearing; I didn’t have to think before I spoke; I didn’t need everyone else’s approval.

That same day, seeing how much I have changed and the new person I have become, I decided to do whatever I can to bring back the girl I used to be. I missed the old me and couldn’t understand how I let others change and define me. I must admit – it wasn’t easy. It’s is not like you can snap your fingers and go back to the way things were.

So, I took the time. Let myself flow with the process. Thankfully, eventually, I managed to save the old me. I rediscovered myself piece by piece, putting myself back together.

Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to be accepted by others. Stay in your lane, focus on yourself, and things will fall into place, believe me. You’ll make more meaningful and lasting relationships by being who you really are.┬áDon’t let anything break who you are. Don’t doubt yourself, and the person you really are will shine bright.

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