Now that you’re gone, nothing can stop me. I’m free to live my life the way I see fit; I’m free to think on my own and not worry about your opinion. Now that you’re gone, I feel light, like all of this weight has been lifted off my shoulders. You have become a burden, dragging me more and more into the ground. Everything I did, everything I wanted, everything I was – it was all according to you. Now I can finally breathe, and let go.
Our relationship was explosive, but it didn’t start this way. At first, everything seemed to be going great, and you seemed to be a dream come true. Everything that I ever wished for, you checked all the boxes. But, as time went by, it all turned out to be a facade. Slowly, you have become controlling and pushy, dictating my every move. You wanted to have a say about who I was seeing, what I was doing, what I was wearing, said it was to protect me. And I, foolishly, bought it.
As a result, you followed me everywhere I went; became the constant voice in the back of my mind. Whatever it is that I did, you were always there to criticize it. Not physically, but mentally. And that might be the most awful of it all, that even when you weren’t there in person, I made sure to criticize myself in your name. Unfourtently, it took me time to see what was happening to me, what you had done to me. And even when I did, it was a hard habit to shake. It was only when we parted ways, and I entered a new relationship that I was able to leave it behind me. Now that you are gone, nothing can stop me, because you were what was holding me back.