Simply Going Through The Motions
July 5, 2021
Claire Miles

My job has completely worn me out. It has been my workplace for almost two years now, and it has been a rocky road throughout. I don’t remember many moments in which I enjoyed working there. I struggled a lot with various issues in my time there – mainly with the work itself. I don’t like what I am doing. I don’t enjoy it. Yes, I am good at what I do, but doing it frustrates and drains me. Often, when I’m there, it feels as if I’m not doing the work out of passion or enthusiasm, but instead, I am going through the motions.

 

 

From the very beginning, I had my doubts. It was not my first pick, and I lacked the passion that is so essential in this work. However, I decided to go ahead with it, as it was the safer option. It was a rocky road, filled with ups and downs and thoughts of quitting. I always found an excuse for staying a little longer or trying a little harder, but all along, it just never felt right. I honestly don’t know from where I drew the strength to push through everything and make it to now.

 

However, recently, as I can already see the finish line in sight, I feel like there is no strength left in me. I barely wake up in the morning, show up to work with low energy, count the seconds until I can go home, and am just going through the motions when I do my job. I have no passion. I don’t enjoy my work. All I can think about is the minute I can finally go home. That is an incredibly problematic mindset and attitude to have, as it is not worth working in a job you don’t like – for everyone. I don’t have much left until I’m done, about a month and a half. This experience has taught me a valuable lesson. From now on, I will listen more to my gut and will only practice jobs that I have a passion for.

 

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