To myself,

I am truly sorry for not loving you enough. Especially after everything that you’ve been through. Your entire life you’ve been hurt, and you were not shown enough love by yourself – and from the bottom of my heart, I am sorry.

Hurt is such a complex thing that none of us want to feel. It’s completely draining, and it’s both a physical and emotional wound, that burns throughout our entire body. It can stop us from everything, and completely takes over us, consuming every living part of us.

When that hurts fades away though, it’s almost as though we miss it. It hurts to hurt, but it also hurts not, in a strange way. But I am sorry, again, and I promise you that I will start to be stronger. I will learn to embrace being alone, and enjoy my own company. One day, you will be proud of me, and you will love me as I deserve.