As you may already know, I started working at a new job in September of 2019. I have shared with you many of my experiences there, from my very first day to other challenges I faced. After a half-a-year of employment there, I have decided that I should leave this job.
See, after facing many difficulties, I have come to the understanding that it is not worth it. As much as I love what I do and am sure of my abilities, I am unhappy. Waking up in the mornings is a struggle. I am counting the days until the weekend, counting the hours until I am back home. See, when you don’t like what you do, it affects more than your professional performance.
I am constantly tired. I am angry and impatient with my loved ones. I eat all the time as a form of comfort. Being at a job you dislike brings out the worst of you.
I tried working on it; tried to push through. I thought that after this amount of time, I would already find my feet. After all, beginnings are hard, especially for me. However, as time passed, I found that nothing improved. No matter what I did, no matter how much I worked on changing my approach, I was still unhappy. Not loving your job is an extremely frustrating situation to be in. It means leaving something safe behind and stepping into the unknown. It means starting over.
Despite that, after giving it much thought, I decided that I have to quit my current job. However, as I don’t want to be reckless and like to plan, I want to have a plan for the future before I hand in my resignation. So, I did some research and applied to several job interviews I thought would fit. Unfourenetly, not many replied to my application.
Before I carry on, I feel like I should mention that usually in life, I am rather a passive person. I don’t like to push too hard, so I hope things would magically work out in my favor. That is why I was proud of myself when I picked up my phone and called some of these companies to ask what is the status of my request. This resulted in five upcoming interviews.
What I want to say is that sometimes it is important to step out of our comfort zone and be active in the change we wish to see in our lives. If there is something in our lives that upsets up and we wish to change, we should work for it.