As you may already know, I am set to wed my fiance soon. One of the most known traditions before a wedding is the bachelor party. I have to admit this habit made me very worried. Though I shared with you that my new year resolution was to trust people again and be less jealous, am I that wrong for objecting this old-fashioned and even offensive ritual?

After having a long, honest talk with my boyfriend, I have no doubt in my mind that I can trust him. With that being said, old habits die hard; I’ve been hurt so many times in the past by men who I thought I could trust.

Why do I have to play along with this sleazy, disrespectful, and often idiotic ritual just so that I won’t appear as controlling or uncool? Why shouldn’t I stand up for myself and express my opinion? There are many possible party concepts, why go with the old-fashioned one?

With all of that being said, I still can’t help but criticize myself. Why does it bother me so much? Why can’t I trust my boyfriend and let go? I promised myself to be more easy-going; to trust my boyfriend, as he truly deserves it. So, why can’t I live up to my word?

I don’t want to ask my boyfriend to not have a bachelor party, but another heart to heart might ease my mind. I know I need to let go of my past, worries, and trust issues, but there is still a long journey ahead of me. I love my fiance and he is worthy of my trust. There is a lot we need to figure out together and that I need to figure out alone. Wish me luck, and I promise to notify you of all new developments.