Since September, I opened up to you many times about my journey at my new job. I’ve faced many difficulties, and it’s been a long time until I finally reached the place I am at today. Now, after a long time, I finally made some connections with other people in my department, and I enjoy coming to work in the morning (most days). Towards the end of March-start of April, my department faced closure. I was so worried about starting over somewhere new, having already gotten to know the people in my old department. It was like a start over. This whole experience got me to value my position and my department even more than I did before, and helped me decide on staying there after months of wanting to leave. About a month later, I was informed by my boss that my department is reopening, which made me very happy. However, about a few days ago, my boss told me that once again, my department is at risk of shutting down.
It was devastating. One again, I would have to start over somewhere else, and who knows what might be waiting for me elsewhere. I got so attached to everyone in my department. They were the only reason behind my decision to stay at my place of work. I understand that those things are dynamic and things change all the time, and I understand that this is very selfish of me as there are much bigger things happening in the world at the moment. However, I didn’t expect this to happen so quickly again. This news turned my world upside down and made me question things I was certain about moments before. Thankfully, I learned today that my department once again dodged a bullet, and for now, will be working as usual. Still, there is a part of me that fears this scenario will unfold once more. So, until next time. Stay healthy and safe.