Your heart and your stomach sink and ache. You feel like the biggest idiot in the world. You can’t believe how much time and energy you wasted on him. You never expected this to happen and you are completed blindsided.

You thought that he cared about you. You thought that all the texts he sent you meant something. You were waiting all this time for his to ask you out, but he was actually focused on someone else, on another girl.

You spend countless sleepless nights trying to understand how this could have happened. You hate yourself for having been so naive and gullible.  You wonder to yourself if they just met or if she was in the picture all along. What if he was liking your pictures as they were snuggled up together in bed.  What if he was pursuing her the entire time you were pursuing him.

You want to confront him and scream at him about how he betrayed you and broke your heart. But you know that he was never really yours, you never were actually dating, and he doesn’t owe you anything.

But somehow, you still have feelings for him, even though you know he’s no longer available.  You can’t just make those feelings go away in the blink of an eye.  You feel like you will never get the closure you need for this. You feel like you will never find love, you thought he was good for you, but you clearly could not have been more mistaken.

Even though the guy you liked now has a girlfriend, you will eventually understand that it was meant to be, and that’s he the one whose really missing out.