I am a very indecisive person. It’s hard for me to make a decision, to be the one calling the shots. When it’s a group setting, I am scared of being the one to make the rules, the one that the responsibility falls on if anything goes wrong. And, when I’m by myself, I am worried about choosing the wrong option. I just can’t make up my mind. Not only does it drive my friends and partner crazy, but also me. I can’t carry on with avoiding making decisions, debating every single thing to no end. But when can I do about it?
And it’s not only that I can’t make up my mind, but also that after reaching a decision, I can change it again in a heartbeat. For example, back when I was in high school, after a long decision process, I finally picked a major. Then, a few months into the year, I changed my mind. I noticed that I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would. So, I approached my counselor and asked for a transfer. Then, after a while in my new major, I realized that I missed my older one. I missed the teacher and my friends there, so I returned. For a while, it was great, but after that time, the feeling of frustration returned.
I didn’t know what to do with myself. I can’t change my opinion every second – it just can’t work that way. Unfourtanetly, that wasn’t the only time that happened to me. At the end of the day, however, there is no avoiding this. Life is nothing but a bunch of decisions we make that determine the course of our lives. I have to be able to make decisions on my own and stand behind them, no matter the results. We can’t predict the path of our life, but we can take a little control we are given, which is making our own decisions. So, this is my challenge for now. It’s time for me to take control of my life and make some decisions.