So I am not the girl you thought you knew and loved. You found out that I have baggage I carry around with me, that underneath it all there is something more complicated. I wonder how it felt for you to discover all of that. What did you think? Of me? Of us? Did you think about ending it? Because on the surface you didn’t show it. But still, I can feel that something is a bit off with your behavior lately. You have been more distant and evasive, and I don’t understand why.

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No one is perfect. So how can you expect me to be? Plus, you know my history. You know how painful it is and how much it affected almost every part of my life. So why, all of a sudden, are you so surprised? I thought that everything between us was going well, that we understood each other. Do you know how this makes me feel? It makes me feel inadequate, undeserving; it makes me feel small. Despite all my baggage, everything that had happened to me, I still have so much more to give. I gave you so much love, I opened up to you, and this is what you give me in return?

And it’s not like you’re an angel either. Yes, I’m not perfect, trust me, I’m aware of that, but neither is you. The difference between us is that when I came across your imperfections and flaws, I accepted them. Seeing the true you made me love you even more. It helped me heal, seeing that you, who I put on a paddle stool for so long, is flawed as well. I love you so much, still. Please, let’s go back to the way things were. I truly hope that you will come to your senses and accept me for who I am because if you won’t, I must have misjudged who you really are; Because this is not the man with whom I fell in love.